Up and Down like a Yo-Yo!

20 02 2012

Right.. It’s stupid


My emotions are playing a number on me! I mean, I managed to do a whole 8 days of me! actual happiness! Then BAM! like, right back to what seems to be 2012 definition!

If it wasn’t for this i wouldn’t be having so many ‘slip ups’ well, one aint so bad, just got to await more.


No, I’m not gonna be positive. I’m negative. Because then, if something good comes out of a situation, it’s a bonus, and if not, at least i can be smug and say, ”I did say so” :L


But yeah, so it’s a dip again.. Down in the dumps etc.


So, in reference to the othe blogs


I give up :’) (Yes, i do mean :’) *Sarcasm*)


I mean, why try to be happy, if I can only manage, what, 8 days? well, why not be me?


An unhappy, miserable git.

I’m usually getting called Grumpy Guts..


And we are meant to live up to expectations?

So expect me to be grumpy, it’ll be what you get.


This blog isn’t ”dark stuff” as it’s been referred to, it’s my stuff.




Its basically a catch up…

5 02 2012

so.. yeah…


Sad/Down/Depressed for a reason I no longer know. The happy for a bit, then slumped for a bit. So, it’s got to be happy again next, yes?


Well, tbh. I don’t know what’s keeping me ‘trying’ if you will. cause I’m pretty sure, i’ve given up dozens of times now.. And all I’m doing is coming back in for another fight.

Climb into the ring for a battle that you can’t win

Swing as hard as you can swing

It will still mean nothing

Yeah? It doesn’t matter how hard Im trying, I aint winning! I’m just pushng, and falling. Stuck in an endless cycle of pushing and falling. It also seems like im the one to pick up the friend when he’s fallen. yet, when im down, are you here to pick me up? yes. but i decide to push you away.


seems my main objective of life is to see how many people i can psh away.


I’m good at it though!

Struggle this week, then half term. 

That’ll also be a struggle.


ah well.


you win some you lose some



time to start winning?


i hope so!


till next time,